2010 Reflection

Let me start off by first saying that this year I feel like has been the most memorable, exciting, important, learning, painful, favorite, and meaningful year yet. I not only learned a lot about myself but about life, about what I want to go after but most of all I feel like I am actually starting to open my eyes. Open my eyes to who I am, to who other people are, to what I’m living for, to what I’m seeking in the distance and to just, the WORLD.

The year didn’t start off that promising, I think I was confused about something but at the same time not sure what I was confused about. I feel like I kept looking for something but not really sure what I was looking for and knowing that I would never truly find it. Maybe I just felt like apart of me was missing or maybe I was just trying to figure out who I was.

The year started out with a new riding barn, starling’s volleyball and the second semester of my sophomore year. It ended with jumping horses, del sol volleyball club and the start of junior year, it can only go up hill from here.

As a litlle side note I would also like to add that I made my high school varsity volleyball team again at the beginning of my junior year as well as last school year.

As always there is all the little in betweens that happen from start to finish. I would say that the in betweens would be from March to October, an 8-month period.

I would say Starlings would have to be the start of my amazing year. Not only did I make new friends but I also got closer to some old team mates. There is one person in particular from starlings that made a huge difference. Her name is Melissa, she was not only my starlings coach but also my neighbor, friend and role model. Lets put it this way she could be anything when I needed her to be, she had different roles in my life but, most of all she was real and brought me back on my feet. Not only did she make a huge impact on me but I hope that I had the same effect on her.

I have made some pretty amazing friends this year along with getting closer to my already close friends. I have always spend my time with adults a little more then kids my own age. This year I can definitely say that I have spent more time with kids my own age. It was a good change for me and I don’t know what I could do without my amazing friends. There always their for me know matter what the situation is.

Shannon, I met this year and she is already my best friend she can make me laugh no matter what just because of all the silly things she does. Bella, old acquaintances but new best friends, she is not afraid to give me a slap in the face every once in a while but she reminds me who I am while doing it. We (Shannon, Bella and I) turned in to mermaids this year, it defiantly showed a big part of how much I have evolved. Abi, well well well I can surly say we have gotten closer this year and is probably the craziest person I know, in a good way. Amber, we have been friends since middle school and I know we had our ups and downs this year but she knows more about me then anyone. All these beautiful ladies are like sisters to me, I couldn’t even possible imagine my life without them.

School has always been very comfortable for me especially at HTH. School the past year has been great well, better then the years before. There is this amazing women named Rachel who has helped me with a lot more than just school work. She has taught me so so so much, I would not be where I am today without her. This year I feel like I actually took what she was telling me for the past two years and started listening to it and started to change. She is amazing and beautiful and if I had to sum her up in one word I would chose, hero.

One of the highlights of this year for me was going to New York for my auntie Erins surprise party. I love it there so much, I could spend the whole day just walking around especially when there is just a light snowfall. My auntie Erin never fails to surprise me, if its from singing and dancing together or just to a simple talk. Even though she is so far away she is always close in my heart, she just doesn’t listen to what I have to say but she understands what im trying to say. She is an amazing women and i look up to her so much, she is a role model. She is the who i blame for teaching me to "charge it" on a regular basis (probably the best life skill and lesson i have ever learned to date hehe) - my shopping addiction is all due to her. Im so thankful that she has been in my life ever sense I was born, I love her tons.

This year I have also gotten a lot close to my aunt Angie and Christi. When I was younger my aunt Angie and I would hang out all the time, she was the only house I would sleepover at. This year we have regained our relationship, and I value it a lot. I love whenever Im around her we just have a blast and do crazy things. She makes me feel beautiful especially when we do photo shoots. Now Christi was introduced to me a couple years ago and she IS SO COOL! Until this year I didn’t know her that well but after we did a couple girl gatherings that problem was fixed. I love her millions and billions because she is so easy to talk to, she teaches me things and we always have a good time. We always talk, yeah through the phone and internet but we like to send letters to each other, which I love because its so unoriginal theses days. I look up to her sooo much, she is like a big sister.

Overall this year has been both terribly pain full and amazingly wonderful. There is so many amazing people in my life and I can not tell you how much I love them and are thankful for them. I’m scared, excited, curious, anxious and nervous about what next year has in store, what my future has in store.

Happy New Year!!!
-Maddy Rae

Putting the cookies on the stove

Last night i was at a neighbor hood holiday party, i only went to see this one neighbor who i absolutely adore (she's amazing, and does amazing things and is just a fascinating person inside and out) unfortunately she couldn't make it. I mingled a little bit and was about to go home until i started talking to our neighbor wendy, i havn't seen much of her let alone get to know her. We talked about collage and my future a lot, she really opened my eyes on the subject. Having her be excited for me made me excited for me. She put reality on solid ground for me and was very humbling. She faces the facts and doesn't lie she tells it how it is. This was nice for me because i havnt had anyone (besides maybe horses and rachel the teacher in the recourse room) put me back on earth, back on solid ground since my friend moved.
I really like wendy she's super nice and comforting and i feel like that she wont lie and just wants the best for me. She is excited for my future and says that its an adventure. That i can live anywhere i want for four years and pick any path i want to take, and that there are a million paths and if i don't like the one i pick there is always a left and right to choose from. She says that i can always change my future and choose it but it is all up to me, I HAVE TO MAKE IT HAPPEN- no one else can do it for me.
I definitely will be knocking at her door soon to catch up or to "put cookies on the stove" as she would say it.

Love, Maddy Rae

Wrapping Up the Year- Literally!

HOLY MOLY!!!
This year has gone by sooo sooo sooo fast! - i cant believe it.
Ive been busy, so thats why i havnt posted in a while, things have been hectic with school (last minute projects and homework), i just made the del sol volleyball club team so thats been a busy start and as always everything in between!- ohh and of course christmas shopping!

I got my compendium package today that i ordered. I ordered some really cute cards for my teachers and friends that im going to give at the end of the school year, i got a book called BE for myself to inspire me on those days im down and i got a little book called HERO for the recourse room lady Rachel at my school. She has helped me so much over the past three years and i COULD NOT be where i am today without her. She has helped me from school work to just life in general and believed in me before i did. She is a true hero.

Well i have to go do honors and math homework and send auntie a my schedule for the next couple weeks so we can eventually get together cause i miss her tons!!!!

hope all of you are not behind on your holiday shopping ;) hehe

<3 maddy rae