I often forget...

So i often forget how much i love horses and riding. I forget how they have the power to be the only thing in this world it seems to make me happy. I forget that they are the main thing i want to be in my future. I often push riding to the side especially when i have volleyball or something else that gets in the way. What i usually end up realizing but always forget is that; horses and the barn and people at the barn truly make me happy and i need to stop pushing that aside and start making it my number one priority. Because i deserve to be happy all the time. After 3 weeks of not going riding i finally went this past sunday and let me tell you i needed it. I can tell that even only riding once a week isn't enough for me. I start to feel my stress, worries, anxiety and tears building up. Let alone not riding in 3 weeks was driving me insane! I find that the barn is the only thing that can really take these things away. I just need to find a way to remind myself of this because this isn't the first time i have forgotten!